It feels a hole inside.
omg! i'm so heartbroken!
I did it!! i cut the bond with him!!
After being away for weeks i got the enough power to ask the right things and say the right and wrong stuff. I DID IT!!
And i feel so heartbroken!!! is this how i supposed to feel???
Shouldn't i have a liberating feeling?? i don't have any, actually i feel guilty, and i wanna take back all what i said cuz i know i hurt him, but in other hand i know it was the right thing to do, what i would advice to any of my friends to do, and that i should've done since a long time ago.
But i can't help it, i wanna call him, i wanna write him an email, i wanna ... i wanna be with him but he doesn't want to be with me !!
He said it!!! it's nothing i assumed or i thought... HE SAID IT !! HE ADMIT IT !! HE ... he's the reason i am like this, cuz i don't really wanna stop talking to him but i told him we shouldn't talk anymore. At the end he told me he doesn't really know how to deal with people BUT come on!!! ... i was the one he said he loved !!!! i know those feeling are gone but still, he shouldn't feel as he doesn't wanna meet me because of what we had in the past as he said.
I'm really really disappointing about all this, about him, i just hope a lot from him, i made him better than what he really is, i'm not telling he's a bad person, but for me he was all this good stuff, i was so blind, omg! i feel sooo stupid and heartbroken.
Just to think that i won't talk to him makes me feel sad, but i know it's all for the best. I'm doing what i should have done a long time ago.
I'm sorry but i'm not anyone's toy, and i feel he was only using me. Cuz how don't you wanna met someone you say you "care" about ??? Because how you say you don't feel as meeting the person you talk everynight before going to sleep???
I know i'll be better, but now it hurts inside, sooo much.
I'm sorry for what i did but i had to Mathieu. =( and the sadder thing is that you didn't even care, you agreed with me and you didn't fight for your right as a "friend" to keep talking to me.
This is all so sad.
So long....
I did it!! i cut the bond with him!!
After being away for weeks i got the enough power to ask the right things and say the right and wrong stuff. I DID IT!!
And i feel so heartbroken!!! is this how i supposed to feel???
Shouldn't i have a liberating feeling?? i don't have any, actually i feel guilty, and i wanna take back all what i said cuz i know i hurt him, but in other hand i know it was the right thing to do, what i would advice to any of my friends to do, and that i should've done since a long time ago.
But i can't help it, i wanna call him, i wanna write him an email, i wanna ... i wanna be with him but he doesn't want to be with me !!
He said it!!! it's nothing i assumed or i thought... HE SAID IT !! HE ADMIT IT !! HE ... he's the reason i am like this, cuz i don't really wanna stop talking to him but i told him we shouldn't talk anymore. At the end he told me he doesn't really know how to deal with people BUT come on!!! ... i was the one he said he loved !!!! i know those feeling are gone but still, he shouldn't feel as he doesn't wanna meet me because of what we had in the past as he said.
I'm really really disappointing about all this, about him, i just hope a lot from him, i made him better than what he really is, i'm not telling he's a bad person, but for me he was all this good stuff, i was so blind, omg! i feel sooo stupid and heartbroken.
Just to think that i won't talk to him makes me feel sad, but i know it's all for the best. I'm doing what i should have done a long time ago.
I'm sorry but i'm not anyone's toy, and i feel he was only using me. Cuz how don't you wanna met someone you say you "care" about ??? Because how you say you don't feel as meeting the person you talk everynight before going to sleep???
I know i'll be better, but now it hurts inside, sooo much.
I'm sorry for what i did but i had to Mathieu. =( and the sadder thing is that you didn't even care, you agreed with me and you didn't fight for your right as a "friend" to keep talking to me.
This is all so sad.
So long....
posted by Leticia @ Sunday, April 06, 2008
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