whatever!
whatever!
It's still hard to me to talk about the day i broke up with him, i want to avoid it and think about something else... it's not that i'm denying it but it hurts me to think about that, but of course that i know that we broke up and we're FRIENDS now.... weren't we friends before????.
I'm trying to find a reason to hate him but i don't wanna hate him, but do you want to know why i want to find that reason?, because i feel that would make me help to forget this feeling of love for him faster. Right now i'm all a mess, i think i'm going "good" at university just because it has to be like that, but not because i really want, sometimes i feel wanna quit everything and just get lost and dissapeared from here and become a new person in another place where no one knows anything about me. Why i want that?, i don't know really, but i'd feel free and with a chance to start my life all over again, like a re-born. I can't believe he's causing me all these dilemas.
I don't regret about anything that happened, those were beautiful moments and a really great part of my life. So right now you must be wondering why i wanna start all over again and just think in something else... well it's because i still love him and he doesn't love me back and it hurts. I'm still the same girl who used to wait for him to talk and who was always happy thinking about our future together, even if it won't be possible again now. why i don't learn about what happened to me?. It supposes that i'm a "smart girl" and i know what's good for me and this way i'm living my life right now it's not good but it makes me feel good... so could it be that things that seem not to be good for someone become in good things because make that someone feel good or happy?.
Can you notice the mess that is in my head right now?. Well it was there even before i met him so.. i can't blame him for that i guess. I don't want either so it's cool with me.
what i still don't get it's why he stopped loving me???, i don't believe in what he told me when he walked away and said good bye. Sometimes i wish i could get into people's mind and know what they thought or are thinking in this moment, because just in that case i'd know the real reason why my ex boyfriend broke up with me.
I'm getting a bit obsessive about it...
Well ... i'll try not to think too much about it even if i can't help it.
Ciaocito!
It's still hard to me to talk about the day i broke up with him, i want to avoid it and think about something else... it's not that i'm denying it but it hurts me to think about that, but of course that i know that we broke up and we're FRIENDS now.... weren't we friends before????.
I'm trying to find a reason to hate him but i don't wanna hate him, but do you want to know why i want to find that reason?, because i feel that would make me help to forget this feeling of love for him faster. Right now i'm all a mess, i think i'm going "good" at university just because it has to be like that, but not because i really want, sometimes i feel wanna quit everything and just get lost and dissapeared from here and become a new person in another place where no one knows anything about me. Why i want that?, i don't know really, but i'd feel free and with a chance to start my life all over again, like a re-born. I can't believe he's causing me all these dilemas.
I don't regret about anything that happened, those were beautiful moments and a really great part of my life. So right now you must be wondering why i wanna start all over again and just think in something else... well it's because i still love him and he doesn't love me back and it hurts. I'm still the same girl who used to wait for him to talk and who was always happy thinking about our future together, even if it won't be possible again now. why i don't learn about what happened to me?. It supposes that i'm a "smart girl" and i know what's good for me and this way i'm living my life right now it's not good but it makes me feel good... so could it be that things that seem not to be good for someone become in good things because make that someone feel good or happy?.
Can you notice the mess that is in my head right now?. Well it was there even before i met him so.. i can't blame him for that i guess. I don't want either so it's cool with me.
what i still don't get it's why he stopped loving me???, i don't believe in what he told me when he walked away and said good bye. Sometimes i wish i could get into people's mind and know what they thought or are thinking in this moment, because just in that case i'd know the real reason why my ex boyfriend broke up with me.
I'm getting a bit obsessive about it...
Well ... i'll try not to think too much about it even if i can't help it.
Ciaocito!
posted by Leticia @ Wednesday, November 08, 2006
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